Most people consider a new year a new chance to start over. Resolutions are made. It is time to be a better you and get rid of bad habits.
Perhaps you don’t make resolutions. You just want things to get worse. No new habits, just trying to live your best life.
Normally, I don’t make New Year resolutions but this year I did. It was time to begin to be a better me. I have been lazy and not caring what the year brought because I was just floating along feeling no better and no worse. Just kind of numb to everything.
The past few years have been awful and the chance to take care of me or consider myself wasn’t in the cards. You keep this up and eventually, things turn bad for you. Your health gets worse, you gain weight, you just aren’t the person you use to be.
Why The Change?
I realized by the end of last year that I had hit rock bottom. My body and my mind were going downhill. I was sick and fat and depressed. Things had to change or I would die young or so I thought. At that point, I had no way to go but up.
I can’t get comfortable in bed at night. I can’t sleep or I go to sleep but then wake up and stay awake for hours. My stomach was constantly hurting. I would sit down or lay down and when I got up, I hurt so bad that I could hardly move. I was getting bigger and bigger and I was miserable.
Now, nothing has changed yet. This is just the beginning of the new year and I am still my same self except now, I am trying to be better.
How Am I Going To Get Better?
The first thing I am doing to get better is to get rid of my old attitude. I left the pity party and am trying to think of myself in a better light. At the same time, I am trying not to be so hard on myself and let things that don’t matter, go. I am getting older and some things will never be the same and that’s ok but I can try and be healthier for my age.
That starts with eating right. How do you do that? That is a great question because everyone has an opinion or idea of how healthy eating is supposed to look. I am not buying that. I have tried every diet and I am tired of that.
I have friends that have been successful on so many different diets. They just haven’t worked for me. My stomach issues just seem to be getting worse. I tried the popular Keto and it just didn’t work for me. I felt sick.
I decided to do the opposite. I cut back on meat, cheese, and eggs and started eating more fruit and vegetables. The pain is gone. My gallbladder was removed and maybe that’s why fat and animal protein weren’t working for me. I will keep you posted on how this goes.
Trying To Make Matters Better Than They Are
There was a time when I would not let things get to me. You would think as you got older that this would continue but in my case again, it was the opposite.
Something would happen at home or at work and it probably would be no big deal but to me it was everything and I would truly get upset. I knew in my head that I shouldn’t be reacting the way that I was but my emotions just couldn’t shake it. I really tried during last year working on this and I have been better with this and will continue working on my emotions and reactions.
The other thing that I am working on is not being so lazy. This is so not like me. I am an active person and a social butterfly but in the past couple of years, I haven’t wanted to do anything or see anyone. Sitting on the couch by myself was just fine with me.
This is not good for me or my family. I have so many things that I want to do and places I want to be. This is still a thing for me and I still have to make myself get up and do things. Once I am up and going I am fine.
How will this year end?
While no one can tell the future, I am predicting that I will be better. On New Year’s Eve of this year, I will be healthier, skinnier, happier and more outgoing. I won’t be so hard on myself and my family will be grateful for the change.
Never give up. Be better each day even it is small. Small things add up to be big and that is the goal. I am looking to be well. Wellness may be my new word for this year.
Until next time,